I have a million questions ...
but I cannot think of one ...
weariness has stolen my will to know ...
Would knowing make it better ...
ease my way
lighten my load?
I hear you say, "It would not"
understanding will not soothe the sorrow
so you let it be
a mystery ...
begging me to trust
in the darkness
urging me to reach
for light ...
so I hang on to the invisible
knowing someday I will see
Your purpose for walking through
dark valleys whose entrances have
no warnings
whose valleys are like mazes
without posted exit signs
It feels as if I am wandering
yet You are near
we will make it through this valley
You carry me ...
valiantly facing my destiny
Cheri,
ReplyDeleteYour poetry on this site is beautiful. There are some places in my life where I really identify with your words today. Thank you for the reminder that I don't need understanding but rather His presence.
Amy
This reminds me of feelings I had, and wrote about back in the May when little Maria Chapman passed away. So many questions.
ReplyDeleteThis is written so well Cheir. Very powerful. I know it flows from a broken, yet surrendered heart.
Hugs,
Joy
Wow. This really hit me. You KNOW my valley. You know my lack of understanding and desiring. My flesh says YES, it would make it better to understand the whys hows whats. But then I'm sure on the other side (understanding), I would stand there and say, You're right God. It still hurts with the understanding. Yet, as I type this I still say no, it would be better to know. Why did God let him go? Why didn't God throw a mountain in front of beloved? What is God going to do with my life? What Lord is the good that You will make from my sorrow? What Lord? How Lord? When Lord? When will You bring my suddenly? When will You bring my miracle? When will You restore what YOU joined together, Lord? Help me, Lord to understand how I'm better without the mate You destined for me? Help me understand what the good is? Is there more good than just me growing as Your child? Can't there be more Lord? Can't you whoo him and change his heart, help him see the blessig of obedience and restoration? Fill me with Your peace Lord so I don't wonder, so I don't get consumed with so many questions. Fill me with You Lord.
ReplyDeleteCheri, the combination of your words and the song that I thought was playing on your site or maybe another blog I have open moved my spirit. As I typed what I thought would be just a comment to you, turned into a prayer and plea to God. I've got to now find out this song name.
Love,
Paula
I can't wait till I get to Heaven and can ask the million questions I have knowing I will receive the answers!
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