Reminder

It has been a rough time. Six year olds are not supposed to die! Especially little girls who dance all over my kitchen while singing praise songs to Jesus. This death has totally winded me.

I have been heavy with grief. Reality has moved in ... the busyness of funeral and all has settled ... everyone knows that it is time to move on, but I have been feeling so stuck! I, the one who is used to moving at a rapid rate ... I have been halted!

I have been tethered to grief and have not been able to get free.

Recently I cried out to the Lord in the night watches, which have been frequent ...

"Lord, help me! I am not grasping this! I am not okay! I am not moving! I am stuck! Help me get beyond this hour of despair! Are you there to pull me out of this quicksand of despondency?"

I silenced my cries and I waited to hear His voice. I needed to hear Him.

Finally I heard it! He spoke! A thought slipped into my mind and I recognized it as His voice immediately.

He said ...

"You are focusing on death ... focus on the life!"

Asya lives ... I know that! She is with Jesus and we have talked about this over and over and we have known it from the first day. She is living her eternity out, just like we are, she is just beyond the curtain now pulled between the seen and unseen spheres.

I know that ... I really do, I KNOW that!!! But something about Him speaking that to my heart helped me to really KNOW it! I grasped it like a drowning man reaches for for a rope. Truth has arrived to liberate me!

John 11:25 ~ "Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And he who believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?"

And this morning there was a cross in the sky! An empty cross reminding me of this promise! He died on a cross, He defeated death! He lives and because He lives there is life! Life for everyone who believes!

Do you believe?