Me?

"How well do you know yourself?"

Hmmmm ... I think pretty well ... but there are times when I have revelation of the deeper side of me, the part that others might see very clearly but I am oblivious to it.

Two dear friends have shared with me this week interesting conversation. It has stirred me.

My friends have discovered some things about themselves that they had not realized before. One of my friends said, "I have seen this flaw in my children but never in myself."

Typical of most of the human race, I would say, we see what in another's heart but we can't see the very same flaw in our own heart. Been guilty.

This friend has been involved in a Jennifer Rothschild Bible study that is requiring her to look inward and discover who she really is. The truth that she was meditating on when we visited was about insecurity and how it is the symptom of pride. Now I must refer back to Jennifer's book, Me, Myself, and Lies to rediscover this truth for myself. I remember that study ripping the veil off the mirror of my soul, revealing a ton of reality in my own heart! Hmmmm.

Another dear one shared with me a revelation from their past. Their revelation came after meditation on scripture. Suddenly they understood the reason for why they were the way they were. Somehow they were taken way back into childhood memories ... places that had been ignored for decades and as the Lord let them relive the moments He lovingly liberated them from the baggage acquired through those life experiences. Suddenly they realized that they had limited themselves for years with relationships and in other ways because of those experiences. Revelation brought them courage and with truth in their heart, my dear friend broke the mold that has capsulated him all these years. He has freedom!

I have had these major discoveries many times before ... Sometimes I suddenly realize how prideful I am, or how selfish I am, sometimes I am greedy, or angry, or hurt. There are good things, too, like I daringly try something new, like eating oysters on the half shell ... I didn't like them at all! But I do like sushi ... when I have it with Luke. I know I really, really love Jesus! Yes, I do! I know that! I know that I love Scotty even when I don't like him! I know that I want to make new friends. Friendships have been good for me.

I happened to check out Beth Moore's blog today. Funny! She wrote about 10 things about herself that we might not know.

Let me quote her first 3 and perhaps you would like to check out her blog for yourself to enjoy the other 10 at Living Proof Ministries.

Things Beth knows about herself and now we do, too.

1. I have an addiction to ziploc bags.

2. I hate wet socks.

3. I was the only baby out of five that was born to my mother without anesthesia. She
never forgot it!


So, how well do you know yourself. Sometimes I just have to pray Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties; and see if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."


I must do this because things settle to the bottom of my heart and I don't even know they are there, but the Lord does, and He knows how to stir them up to the top so that I can see. Then I get to choose if I want them to stay there or not.

So, here are ten random things about me that you might not know: (Yes, I am copying Beth.)

1. I LOVE jewelry, which is so much more expensive than ziploc bags.
2. I love to cook in the winter but not in the summer.
3. I want to go on a Mediterranean cruise.
4. I don't like to do laundry but I love pretty clothes.
5. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up but I know who I want to be like.
6. I used to avoid scheduling really important events on odd numbered dates ... such as my wedding day, until all of my five children were born on odd numbered dates, 5th,17th,3rd,3rd,and 23rd. I didn't choose those dates, believe me! My children started stretching me from the womb :) in more ways than one. Now even numbers and odd numbers are all the same to me ... "this is the day that the Lord has made."
7. I love old classic movies.
8. I am more into true life stories and not so much into fantasy.
9. My grandmother thought that I should be on a stage, so she started putting me on one when I was wee small. Still not that movie star or entertainer she was after!
10. I am always ready for the next season, loving all four, just ready for the next one usually before it arrives ... Come on spring!

So how well do you know yourself? Sometimes I really don't want to look too close. It can be a challenge to look in the mirror of my soul and discover blemishes all over the place, but it is always beneficial. Revelation gives opportunity to let the Lord exfoliate. Results? New and tender beauty underneath.

So, search me,O God, reveal my heart to me so that we can make it new!